Coffee Bytes

"There might not be anyone who was born with a reason. I think that everyone might have to find one on their own. A reason for being born, a reason that it's okay to be alive, a reason to exist. I think everyone might have to find it for themselves, and decide it for themselves. It could be your dreams, your job, or a person. The reason you're looking for might be vague, unclear, and uncertain, but as long as you're alive, you have to keep searching for that reason."
- Tohru, fruits basket

Konnichiwa, mina-san. (Its japanese, look it up ). So, from the last time I wrote, the world has turned every day, and mine has moved a little forward. The first sessionals have gone by- my worst fear came true, and I DID get addicted to coffee 0.o It just u makes u feel so awake!! and in my case-well-happy. It was amazing what a powerful hold it had on me. It made me smile before a math exam!! However, in the end, it was just the high, and I learnt to my dismay that happiness bought in a cup doesn't last very long, and can't really compensate....

As for the sessionals, I messed up pretty bad. >.> apparently I'm better of procrastinating instead of studying ahead and then daydreaming just before the exam >.<.

Studies have taken a whole different meaning now. They... balance stuff out. In the middle of trying to find my centre, another lesson I learnt was that if there's something like studying to plague you regularly, your more inclined to appreciate the time you have to spend doing things you like.Its also a useful distraction for when you want to do fun stuff but are prevented from doing them.

Here is one of life's truth's - As hard as it is to accept something bad about yourself, sometimes its more difficult to learn something good about you.

There are times when the magic seems a little unbelievable, when its very easy to simply scoff and be moody. Times when you wish you simply didn't care.I also learn that the price comes later, and its certainly not worth it. I have barely gotten used to being 18, but somehow, I continue to try and grow everyday, while maintaining the wonder I always cherished. Fruits basket is an amazing support in such a case, with the most amazing advice and life philosophies.
I'm trying to move ahead, though I continue to be a little left of centre. Also, despite my best efforts, I caught myself thinking of the future. In just a few months, we'll be in our sencond year of college (and Saumy will be 20, as she hates to be reminded :P) There's so much to do, so very little time :D


Until the next blurb (blog),

Kavya